From this past week’s writing, another take on what the writer wants/does not want an other to see. This writing comes with a twist, however.
Your perception of me needs to shift, if ever so slight.
I must tell you, your view of me was definitely skewed.
However, that might possibly be my fault.
I hid who I am from you, and tucked it out of sight.
I did not trust myself or anyone else enough to let them see in.
Many apologies for my countless mistakes.
But, I will ONLY apologize just once, because we must move on.
I may have seemed flighty or foolish; but I am clever and calculating, always thinking, observing, analytical and maybe a little forgetful.
I seemed like I had many secrets and not the most honest.
Truth be told, I was! The secrets have been revealed and honestly? Well, I am ready to tell and hear it all.
You probably didn’t like me too much.
I was chatty (about nothing) and tried way too hard.
I still enjoy talking (to those who listen) and I will not waste my breath on any other lost cause.
I can be jealous, envious and yearned for what I didn’t have. I coveted ‘things’ far too much.
I still want, still yearn, but it is different now.
I yearn for you to now know the ‘real’ me!
I yearn for you to see who I truly am and help me show the entire world.
I yearn to be happy and peaceful.
I earn for you to trust and respect me.
I desperately need you to love me.
“Do you see what I see?” I begged at the reflection staring back at me.